blog/content/posts/books.md

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title: "Books"
date: 2023-04-09T00:46:11+02:00
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Everything started with walking, understanding what people around me were
saying, recognizing the dangers that are out there, learning cultures, to
eventually being broad to an institution that is supposed to teach me about
*life* - school. That is where I was forced to read. Everyday, non stop, till I
reached that deadline and had to write a summary of what I learned during that
period. "Is this what life is all about?" I asked myself. "So I will be forced
to read books and study topics that I have never seen being used in real life for
the next 9 years (minimum)?"

I have passed the first 9 grades studying my state, basic algebra, sociology,
basic law, making a small website, biology, etc. etc. Yet if I was to be tasked
with a minor issue in real life, I would find an excuse that would delay my action
or completely throw the problem out of my life altogether. How is it, that most
kids nowadays hate learning? The second they hear the word *math* their first
emotions are suffering, pain, and boredom. 

We went from encouraging the contributions to humanity to making it seem like
it is the dullest activity someone could be doing to keep themselves busy. In my
opinion, we have created that by constructing a wrong educational system over
time and letting social media companies get away with selling their social
platforms to us. "What does social media have to do with learning?" you might
ask. Let me reply to that with "When iss the last time you were in the middle of
studying something very important, got frusturated at it, and decided to
distract yourself for a little while?"

The majority of us does that on a daily basis and we cannot deny the
uselessness of social media. No matter how much you try to hide it, you will know
that most of it does not provide any sort of value whatsoever and is just a
time killer engineered in a specific way to extrapolate as many minutes of your
attention as possible. 

"Oh, but you can educate yourself through social media" - Ignoring sites like
Youtube, how in world do you think that those 200 characters that you can fit
into your post will give anyone a good understanding of any topic. 

"Oh, but I need to talk to my friends" - Yup, ever heard of SMS before? Look, I
would totally understand.. if it was just ONE application. Why the fuck does
the majority have 4 platforms that all provide the same god damn service. Some
alternatives to SMS may include email, IRC, self-hosted chat server (if you
know what you are doing), matrix, etc. 

Over the course of my teenagehood I realized how strongly this can impact one's
thinking abilities. In just a span of a year I turned my brain upside down and
had completely the opposite opinions from what I used to have before. How did
that happen though? Well, I deleted a good part of the social media I used to
use, I started investing more time in myself, I started talking and listening
to myself, I started seeing failure as the potential to grow rather than what I
was taught at school (failure = failed individual), and what I noticed in the
last 2 to 4 months was what I now call *The Deception of Everything*. 

Biology, Sociology, Psychology, Mathematics, Physics!! They are all connected
with what I initially thought was the only field I would ever truly admire and
love! Computers! They are all interconnected subjects! A firing of neurons
finally made sense! What is so special about all of those subjects, and.. any
subject for that matter!! There will always be a reason people have invented it
and if I had to study it in school, there was probably a good reason. Because
it is all just connected and interesting! "No shit" you might think, but you
see, that is the problem. The fact that most of the people around me have not
realized it by now scares the shit out of me. Or at least.. that is how it
seems.

The mentioned event also occured in the most perfect timing it could have. As I
realized it, I was also in the middle of figuring out that books are way more
interesting than what I was taught at school. Here, I am not forced to learn
anything, I do not explore because I have to. I am doing it because it is so fun
it makes me start laughing by just thinking of it. I felt such an idiot to
finally realize how stupidy interesting it actually is I stayed there in my
dark room for 5 minutes laughing. And as I am now scrolling through the Amazon's
homepage of books, I cannot help myself but to smile everytime I see a book that
sparkles my interest.